My name is Grace Tan from Malaysia and I had my life stolen after I was polydrugged with 12 drugs. I was prescribed antidepressants, antipsychotics, anticonvulsants and benzos for my insomnia.

I have attempted several suicides as I have many physical and emotional effects of the drugs. I tried to hang myself many times, I tried to jump from a tall building, I tried to trap myself in the car, I tried to cut my wrist with knife. I have tardive dyskinesia, heartburn, brain fog, eye floaters, 24 hours loud tinnitus due to brain damage and many other symptoms.

When they were withdrawn, I had chronic insomnia, depression (I never had depression before I took antidepressants, heart palpitations, suicidal thoughts and many other symptoms.

Below are the 12 meds prescribed by psychiatrists for my insomnia. I was on these drugs for 13 months.

Mirtazapine/Remeron
Lexapro
Cymbalta
Rivotril (Clonazepam)
Stilnox (Ambien sleeping pill)
Seroquel (Quetiapine)
Epilim
Valdoxan
Nitrazepam
Olanzapine
Xanax

I stopped 11 drugs and had intense withdrawal symptoms (e.g. suicidal thoughts). I ended up not sleeping for many weeks. I reinstated Seroquel and am tapering now. I started to taper since Jan this year and I still need a few more months. Even after I finished tapering off this drug, many of my organs have been injured. I have chronic insomnia, anxiety and depression. Please note that I never have had any mental illness, not even anxiety or depression.

Finally, I have learnt there are many psychiatrists who prescribe drugs like giving out candies.

I have learnt that we must do research about drugs before taking them. I was a mentally healthy person (I was a professor) before being poisoned.