I’m Nina B and I would like to share my story with you.

Unfortunately, I am affected by this issue myself. 17 years ago I took various SSRI antidepressants for 3 years and became suicidal. I was never suicidal before.

I took the medication because I have had chronic physical exhaustion since childhood, which I think is physical. However, doctors say that the exhaustion is psychological and therefore prescribed the drive-increasing antidepressants fluvoxamine, paroxetine and escitalopram one after the other.

I was suicidal out of three, but I only tried the suicide attempts with paroxetine.

I made one of my suicide attempts in traffic and thus it became a criminal offence. I was sent to the penal system. There I dropped my former SSRI because the drug was supposedly not in stock there. After a few days my condition improved and I felt like I did before the SSRIs. I was so relieved.

But unfortunately I had to stay in the penal system because nobody believed me that my bad condition was caused by the medication. It was bad there. Both the staff and some of my fellow patients made life difficult for me there. Among other things, I was sexually harassed by fellow patients.

It wasn't until I was released on parole that an appraiser believed me that the condition was due to the medication.

I feel traumatized both by the effects of the medication and by the time spent in moderation.